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Was clearing out my drawer that day, and found my old diaries. Took them out, reread them, and had a good laugh at myself growing up. But what shocked me the most was reading the diary I kept when I was 17. It was like something a totally different person had written. I was torn between wanting to give my 17 year old self a hug and wanting to yell at her for being such a self absorbed twit. And I just wished that at 17, I knew some of the things which I knew today.
It made me wonder if knowing all this would make me a better person now if I knew, but sometimes it's the learning process to help us see how far we've come. So, I sat down and wrote this instead:
17 things that I wish I could tell my 17 year old self
One day your acne will go away, your hair will be less oily, and you'll loose all that weight. You will still have those 'unpretty' days, but in time, you will be able to look in the mirror and learn to love the girl looking back at you.
The whole world isn't always against you. It's just in your head most of the time. Stop thinking that everyone's antagonizing you. And stop being such a diva.
If you want more friends, you've first got to take the first step and approach people. And smile. People like being approached. Loose all your stupid pride and go out there and talk to people first. Be a friend to them instead of expecting them to be friends with you.
Stop judging people by the way they look and act. Some of your closest friends today are the people you never be friends with back in high school. Grow up already.
Just get over yourself already.
It doesn't matter that you can't do add maths, maths or physics. You won't be needing any of that crap when you start working.
You are not as slow and stupid as your add maths teacher told you. One day, you're gonna grow up and be one of the top students in the country. Believe it.
The old saying of “there are many fish in the sea” holds true. Don't hang on to what is second (or third. Or fourth. Or fifth) best. You're worth a whole lot more than he ever could be.
There are some dreams which you are holding on to which will hold you back. Let them go, there's something much better in store for you....
....but with that being said, don't give up on your dreams or call them stupid. You will one day travel around the world and learn so many new things, you will achieve so many things you wanted to do.
You'll never loose your love for writing. Don't be so dismissive about it, no matter how childish or crappy your work sometimes seems. Someday you'll miss writing so much it'll be this gnawing hurt deep in you.
Stop thinking “I can't do it.” You can and you will one day do the impossible and achieve things you can't even dream of. You're not as obscure as you think you are.
There are so many people who care for you. So. Damn. Much.
It is possible for you to love more than 1 person at a time. Your heart will learn to expand and grow large enough to fit all of them in.
Be nicer to your sister. She's going to be your best friend one day.
God's steadfastness will amaze you continually, despite all the times when you think He's given up on you. He hasn't.
Stop wallowing in self pity. Your life at 23 will be FABULOUS.
It was tough thinking and writing about this, as its personal, and I feel that I've really changed so much to the point I think my younger self won't recognize me today. So, my challenge to you. If you could, what would you want to tell your younger self, if you could?
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